30 days of journaling - Day 1

26 August 2014.
My journaling has taken a bit of a holiday for several months.  I occasionally scribble in a notebook and I journal when on retreat or on courses, but mostly I have lost the habit.  Last month I was working with Hazel on the Celtic Tree journey and was supposed to journal every day.  I managed day 1 and that was it, lol.  So here is a new attempt to write something every day and see what comes up.

It is late in the evening and I have just got back from another day on Exmoor, this time with the Celtic Tree "Apple".  Technically, it should be Crab Apple as that is the only native species of apple in the UK, though they are difficult to find in the wild as they aren't edible and have mostly been supplanted by grafted species.  

August has been a turbulent month, with the loss of my beloved collie cross Lady and the breakup of a passionate but short-lived relationship.  My ex has reappeared in my life 8 months after I left him and there are tentative signs that perhaps we might be able to be friends after a fashion.  I am still very wary and am definitely not looking to rekindle anything, quite the opposite in fact.  
I had hoped to have finished doing up the house by the end of July and it looks like the end of August will also come and go before completion.  It definitely doesn't feel like home and the urge to move on is as strong as ever, though I am somewhat lacking in motivation at the moment.  

I have camped a lot in the last few months and I sleep better under canvas than I do anywhere else.  Glamping for my birthday weekend was fun, although somewhat tainted with losing Lady on the Friday I was supposed to go, and then officially splitting with Jay on the Monday which was also my birthday.  No great loss as I had already decided it wasn't working for me, though he was particularly immature and cowardly about ending things.  

The Wild Camp was not quite what I had anticipated, though I did get some very clear messages and again, sleeping in a tent worked well.  I could have slept a lot more than I did, the 7:30 drumming alarm was somewhat unwelcome, lol.  

I have gone back to skydiving after a 2 month break.  It took a couple of jumps to get my landings sorted again, but had a great time at Chatteris and did some more work towards my FS1 qualification.  I did actually do one jump at Sibson on the Saturday but I think Chatteris may well be my preferred dz now, especially if Sibson turns into a tandem factory which is looking likely. 

Came home and felt compelled to draw a card.  Couldn't decide which deck so started with "Earth Magic" and pulled Ancestors - Generations.  My Power Animal Oracle card was Dove (serenity) - Slow Down, pause and breathe, then my Goddess Guidance card was Aphrodite - Inner Goddess: Awaken the Goddess within you through dance, self-care and appreciating your divinity.  All very relevant to the messages and realisations I have had recently so I guess I'm heading in the right direction with going to the Earth Dance gathering this weekend :-)