So things went from bad to worse with Dad, with a miserable Christmas and then New Year spent back in A&E followed by readmittance to hospital. Another stressful 6 weeks or so in various wards, followed by transfer to a nursing home for 24 x 7 care. He is now relatively settled there, though there have been many ups and downs, and his condition is worsening quite significantly from one week to the next. So we are on the final decline that the doctors warned us about back in November last year. He has already had one bad chest infection from aspirating food and is back on the pureed diet that he loathes, hence he is not really eating. Toria coaxes him with food she takes in and tries regularly to get his meals upgraded to fork mash but so far, without success. So he is still losing weight and there must be a limit to how much he can lose before his system finally gives up.
In the meantime, I took most of March to volunteer at EarthHeart in the Forest of Dean and had a great time, if somewhat more challenging than expected, living in a dilapidated caravan, dismantling wood post and wire fences and learning some of the art of hedge laying, plus planting trees, clearing brambles, cooking for large groups of people and doing lots of chilling out. A side effect that I really didn't anticipate was doing some really deep work, and having a huge amount of support from such conscious and aware people :-) Some of it was very hard to deal with, but with a couple of breaks away, I really dug down into some core beliefs and core wounds and cleared quite a lot of stuff out. And uncovered some things that I hadn't realised before. I also decided to take Matt up on his offer of Life Coaching based on Inspiration (rather than goal-setting) and am already making more big changes in my life. I have retired from IT Project Management and am now focused on finding more conscious people to spend time with as well as making more time for my close friends. I have fostered a troubled little Yorkshire Terrier so I have a little dog around again, which is forcing me out into nature on a daily basis. I am also meeting more people who can help and support me with his rehabilitation and life is full of fun and joy, and I am feeling much more in tune with my own needs. I am moving further away from skydiving - it is a source of much frustration and disappointment, and although I still enjoy jumping with other people, I really don't get enough out of it to be bothered investing much time and effort in it. I will see out the summer season, but don't intend to continue after that. I loved training for the World Challenge and was very happy with how we performed for the most part (just love the statistic of being 4th in the UK in Rookie and 8th in the World, lol) but the UK weather has been diabolical for team training for FS 4-way so our team really isn't prepared for the UKSL at Langar in a couple of weeks. So I will be training via fun jumps and the Sibson Scrambles instead, in order to inject a bit more enthusiasm into my hobby.
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